


Message From The Ghost

by Dreaded Demon of Night



Category: iCarly
Genre: Angst
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2009-08-31
Updated: 2009-08-31
Packaged: 2013-09-17 03:21:31
Rating: T
Chapters: 1
Words: 736
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5347153/1/
Author URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1212579/Dreaded-Demon-of-Night
Summary: Sam has to deal with Carly and Freddie's marriage while being a ghost. Mentions of Cam, Creddie-ish. Rated T for language.





	Message From The Ghost

**Summary:**** Sam has to deal with Carly and Freddie's marriage while being a ghost. Mentions of Cam, Creddie-ish.**

**Disclaimer:**** I own nothing but the idea of this fic. **

**Warning:**** Dark content. Coarse language. **

**Message From The Ghost**

I watch as Carly stands in front of a full length mirror in her wedding dress. She looks so beautiful in the dress, but the light smile on her face doesn't reach her eyes. I want to reach and stroke her cheek and tell her not to marry this fool, but I can't, I'm dead. I'm a ghost wondering the earth with no reason.

The woman of my dreams is about to marry Freddork and there's nothing I can do. It's been five years since I've passed and she's getting married. Five fucking years and she's forgotten about we had. The most beautiful thing in the world to me. How could she have _forgotten?_

She was my everything, she was all I really did have. I held her in my arms every night and loved her with everything I had, _everything. _Now _he_ has taken my place, holding her, kissing her, loving her. He's snatched her away from me.

And yet, despite her moving on, I can always forgive her. I don't know why. Freddie would never hurt her, maybe that's why I'm always forgiving her? Because I know deep in my anger filled heart he won't hurt her. But why does it hurt _so _much? All the anger that's in my soul just disappears every time I see her smile. A smile that was once directed at me but is now directed at him.

Now that Carly's found happiness that must mean she's over me, right? When a lover moves on that's it right? Nothing more? Then why the hell am I still a ghost wondering the earth? No ones got no use for me anymore, so why the fuck am I still here!?

Carly has someone else to hold her, whisper sweet nothings into her ear, cherish her, _love _her. The woman who _I love _is about to marry a man that will give her things I never could.

If I could cry I would, but all my tears are long gone. I've cried so much over you Carly, but I just can't cry anymore. I've been stripped of everything and I've got nothing left, you were the only thing holding me together. Now that you're gone, where the hell do I go?

I watch you walk down the isle with a nervous smile on your face and I die a little more on the inside, if that's even possible. All the anger, all the rage is just released from me like an animal breaking out of a cage to freedom.

_How could you Carly!?_

_Did you forget what we had!?_

_I loved you! You made me who I was! Why would you just forget about me!?_

All the shouting in the world still won't change a god damned fucking thing. She's still walking down that fucking isle to the man she now loves and all I can do is stand here and fucking watch like a helpless child.

_Please Carly, don't leave me._

I plead while grabbing her shoulders.

_Nothing _it's as if time had stopped had rewound itself stopping me from holding her.

_So God, this is how you torture me? Watching the woman I love marry another? _

Carly reaches the alter and Freddie grasps her hands with a loving smile on his face. My heart aches, the worst pain imaginable has taken over me.

_They kiss._

They're officially married and I feel nothing inside of me. I'm a hollow shell, everything I've ever loved has been taken away from me. This isn't heaven, I'm in hell. Watching them together everyday, laughing, loving each other.

_Why can't I just die?Why am I forever cursed to watch this? What the fuck did I do to deserve this!? Why can't I just leave and never come back to this? I don't want this! I never asked for this! I never wanted to be a ghost forever looking on as loved ones move on!_

_Why am I forever cursed?_


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